five stories falling

im scared. terrified. life has a funny way of kicking you in the butt and making you realise that everything you've worked and strived so hard for can just be flushed down the drain in a matter of seconds. having your whole world crumble right before your eyes. and not being able to do a single thing about it. do i believe in God? yes i do. and i believe that He is in control of every single situation and every minor detail of my life. He allowed things to happen in a certain way as to ensure that i learn from my own stupid mistakes. im truly scared now. i know God knows wat Hes doing. but im scared. i really am. please dont let my worst fears be realised. please.